Epiphany

Aah... I feel like I have so much to look forward to right now. Two musicals, two shows, and SUMMER.

Today was my French final. I didn't think it was that hard, but while I'm at home a while later I get a call from my French teacher. She said that I got a 100 and she was so excited that she wanted to tell me. Of course, I probably didn't give her the super excited reaction she expected, because I was a little weirded out that for the second time today I was getting a call from one of my teachers.

The first time, my chorus teacher had been calling kids to remind them of the rehersal for high school graduation, which the high school chorus is supposed to sing at.

Either way, now that I've had time for it to sink in, I'm pretty excited. French is one of my best subjects, but I definately didn't expect 100. High 90's? Definately. 100? Definately not.

So now I have a nice long weekend. Today I had to come home from my test and clean because we're having a party tomorrow where a friend of my mom's and my dad's coworkers are coming over for a barbeque. My only problem with it is that the oldest kid that's coming is like 10. I'll survive, though. I always do. ;P

I'm counting down the days until the summer workshop that I've mentioned before begins. July 6th- less than a month away. It'll be interesting getting ready for two shows at the same time.

The broadway review is going well. I mean, almost everyone knows each other there so I still feel a little akward, but we've only had 3 rehersals so far. I know I'll be more comfortable as time goes on. I will have to miss a few rehersals, though. And THAT, my friends, is the REAL good news:

After months of my begging, my parents bought tickets to see Chicago. We're going on June 30th. I'm so excited! I love the movie, but I haven't seen it live. And Ruthie Henshall is great. Not only that, but my mad was given four free tickets to see Memphis on July 20th. I mean, I'll have to miss 2 rehersals and one of the days of the summer workshop, but it's worth it. It's not very often that I get to look forward to 2 Broadway shows at the same time. I think it's happened once. Last year, there was a field trip for chorus and we were going to see Phantom of the Opera. I was looking forward to it for months, and then suddenly my dad was given tickets for Phantom of the Opera. The two shows were two days apart, so I saw it with my family, then saw it again two days later with my school. Goodtimes, goodtimes. =]

Ooh, and my last final is on Tuesday. Then? Summer HERE I COME.

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Total change of subject here, but maybe Sunday and/or Monday I'll actually make plans with someone.

I'm sick and tired of watching the world go by wishing I could be a part of it. I go on Facebook and see people posting things like "Great night with _____, _____, and _____" or "At _____'s house". I see people posting pictures of them hanging out with their best friends having a grand old time. And frankly? I'm tired of looking at them all and thinking "Gee, I wish I was there." "Gee, I wish my friends wanted to do something with me." I always say how annoying it is when people complain about things in their life and do nothing to correct it. "I'm fat." Then exersize! "I'm stupid." Then maybe you should actually try in school. "I have no friends." Stop complaining about yourself and people might like you a little better!

You would think I could take my own advise.

So, from now on, I will.

There's a world out there that I've been missing out on. Some will say I'm not missing much. In fact, I've already been told that. I don't care that I'm not missing out on much, I care that I'm missing out. I'm missing out on the chance to be a happy, outgoing girl. I'm missing out on the chance to make new friends and make old friends better ones. I'm missing out on the chance to have a life. Oppertunity is most certainly not a lengthy visitor.

By the time I graduate in June of 2013, I will be rid of this timid burdon that has weighed me down for way too long. I've come a heck of a long was since middle school.

Actually, I've come a heck of a long way since the beginning of the year.
The point is, I'm through pushing people away.

Let's play a game, shall we?
I am going to post a list of the thinks I want to do before I die. Each time I accoomplish one item from the list, I will repost the list minus whatever I accomplished. For example, if my list was to learn to drive, write a book, and get a 100 on a final, I would now be able to repost my list as learn to drive and write a book.

So here it is:

-Fall in love
-Become more outgoing
-Visit France
-Win an award for acting
-Preform on Broadway
-Master some style of dance
-Find some way to make money (Because, while I'm old enough to work, I'm not old enough for anyone to really want to hire me)
-Get a new phone(I've had the same one since Christmas of 6th grade. :P)

So what is so gamelike about this you ask? The goal of this game is to add to it whenever you can, cross things off whenever you can, and never, NEVER let the list become empty. Why? Because without things to work for, I'll get lazy, and if I have nothing to look forward to, then I'll be miserable.

Some of the things on this list can be done in a day, some could take a lifetime, some might never happen... but this list is my way of telling myself "Don't forget to dream," and reminding myself to work for what I want, instead of just wishing for it to appear.

Some wishes come true, but they rarely come true without effort.

I might/might not post another version of the list soon, because I definately had more in mind an hour or two ago when I was thinking about what I would put on it. For now, this'll do.

And don't forget to smile today. :)

Tony Tony Tony Tony Tony~!

^obscure Producers reference? Cheesy? ;]

I'm so excited for the Tonys tonight. Like, really. Super excited. I don't know why I've been looking forward to them so much more than usual, but I have. I love watching the performers especially, even though all it really does is get me really excited about a musical I'll probably never see. Next to Normal, anyone?

So I went to Dorney Park on Friday. That was an adventure. The very first ride I went on was the Hydra. That is a roller coaster.

I don't do roller coasters.

I do have to admit, though, it must have been hilarious for my peers and the strangers around me to see me being dragged - quite literally - into the line. I was seriously fighting the entire time, running in the opposite direction as a friend of mine pulled my by the wrist.

Yes, that was definitely a sight.
And, just because tone of voice does not translate well through text, I'm not being sarcastic.
It seriously must have been really funny. x]

I was in Dorney Park for a field trip with my chorus class. We competed in the competition called Music in the Parks, where basically, your school chorus and/or band goes, sings/plays for some judges, spends the day in Dorney Park, and then finds out their place. I think my school won something like best featured soloist, best mixed chorus at a high school level, best mixed chorus period, and best chorus period.

NUMBAH ONE.

I'm also pretty excited for tomorrow. The Broadway review I auditioned for/blogged about starts auditions tomorrow at 6. Oh? What else? It's also the last day of school? WOW. I guess tomorrow is just going to be packed with epicness.

Let's see. Whatelsewhatelse? I'm in such a theatre mood right now, you don't even know. First I watched an episode of I Love Lucy where she's having a dream after seeing a show, so her dream is like a musical, and then the end of Phantom of the Opera: Behind the Mask, then Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, then The Making of Cats or whatever it was called, and now Cats, and after that the Tony Awards. Last night a friend and I went to the community college to see The Fantasticks. I was familliar with the show and the person I took lessons from before I came to my voice teacher had been working on "Much More" with me, but I had never actually seen it or heard any of the other music. My friend's friend was in it, so we decided to go see it. I was really good. :]

So, uh... I think that's it for now.
That's why I need to blog more often. I tend to forget things, and then I leave stuff out, and yeah.

I guess I'll just edit this post or add it to my next post if I think of something else? ;]

Youtube?

My voice recital was this past Sunday, and, though I only thought I did okay, my family, teacher, and like two people I don't know did tell me I did well. Though I've avoided watching this video like the plauge (I'm a little afraid to. I never liked hearing my own voice), I was wondering if you wanted to. I uploaded it to youtube because my parents wanted to share it with some friends and family. They tried emailing the video, but I guess the file was too big so it froze up our computer when they tried to receive it themselves. I showed my mom how to upload it to youtube so she could just send the link out.

It's wierd to think about, that I uploaded a video of myself that I haven't even seen. Probably not a good idea, but people were going to see it anyway. ;P

Anyway, yeah. I just figured maybe if anyone wanted to check it out and give me a critique or something...
Yeah. ;P

This is sort of a mini post, but I'll try to type up something in a bit more detailed tomorrow, when I should have more time.

Luckily, my last day of classes are on the 14th, and then tests are that week, but tests aren't a whole day, just a couple of hours.

Either way, that means in like a week I'll be pretty much done with school. Not only that, but I'll have a show and rehersals to talk about again. So I'll definately be able to get more posts on here more often.
:D

Click HERE to check it out. :3